Selbsterkenntnis

There is a natural tendency for self preservation in all things. Of course all things do come to an end eventually, at least in our perception. You will agree that we are all mortal and that our lives in the form that we know are finite.

Now, there are currents within our consciousness which can be viewed as having a life of their own. They may form a part of our person, maybe not an independent one, but that is irrelevant, as independence is not a prerequisite for life. I know only a few things about psychology, and I believe it depends a bit on your school what model of the person exactly you wish to adopt. But that there are various facets to every person seems clear. It can be enlightening to look at groupings and namings of such elements of the psyche, even if they might contradict. Experience shows us that changing perspectives can lead to insight, even if the perspectives in our repertoire seem to contradict.

A prominent feature of the personality which is frequently mentioned seems to be the "inner critic". Whether or not he (or maybe she in your case) is homogenously composed is beside the point here. But what if you were to start out on a path of shedding those intentions, biases and opinions and whatever other constructs we use to make sense of the world? This would endanger the inner critic. He will cringe at the thought of being ignored. He will try whatever it takes to sabotage you, since your efforts to "free yourself into being" are threatening his existence. Hence, clarity is so hard to achieve.

I am beginning a process of seeing deeper and clearer (which also leads to communicating more clearly, deeper and more honestly). And these questions are on my mind. Perhaps a bit fasting and meditation is the next step on the way.